This book is a spiritual journey 6 years in the making. I write not only about the meaning of life, but what happens when a one’s highest priority becomes expressing truth for its own sake. When all of society, and the absurdities of everyday life are dismissed as a waste of time, and the single goal of communicating the “project” serves to define all other variables by default. Even in today’s confused world, there are means and ways to do so. To drop out of high school, and get by through the grace of God until a CD ROM, web site, laptop and wireless phone enables a pure upload. But in a world where people are malicious even in supermarkets when the stakes are just fruits and vegetables, manifesting a moment of truth, a meaning of life, an infinite amount of potential energy, into a tangible book becomes a very dangerous endeavor. Especially for a sensitive guy like me- and if I was like everyone else and mean/dumb enough to be immune to all the perils of the rat race, I wouldn’t have come up with these ideas to begin with. I am now living as a wired hermit, alienated from all society, and even my family. I am 26 but refuse to become an adult, when everyone knows children are happier, more free, and dream more purely. The more love I create, whether through writing, music, images, or the SWS Network of web sites, the more all else becomes existent by default. But its dangerous to be a baby. Even with the help of digital technology. As I strive to become an independently survivable digital infant, I become much more susceptible to the obstacles we all experience daily, carrying our dreams of love across the dangerous and limiting threshold that define the everyday physical worlds we live in. The result is always diminished by the fear and illusion which define this world. All physical reality, by definition, is the absence in some form of spiritual existence. To be totally God like is to not exist. To be 1 or 0, not the grey mush in between. But in this grey mush, we are scramble to somehow increase our immortality, and make our souls more powerful for when we go back to the infinite world of non-existence from which we came. And it is the potential to create more love than existed previously, not because but in spite of the greyness, pollution, that makes the human experience infinitely valuable. Every kick becomes a push, every death a birth, every birth a death, every added mess, a potential for more harmony to be created. And potential builds the spiritual world just as molecules and atoms build the world of our senses.
In addition to philosophical and spiritual examinations, I share some of the personal experiences, anecdotes, triumphs, and tragedies, that brought me to these realizations. This book is best experienced together with the http://DoubleMirrors.com website, updated continually, and the Project Double Mirrors CD ROM, which includes multimedia, animation, hundreds of images, and an original ambient/techno soundtrack. The work begins with light autobiographical writing, and gradually increases in depth and philosophical content, with the extended Double Mirror Theory on page 303, and concludes with the recent insights “The Doorway” and “Origin of the Universe/ 1s and 0s”, which came to me while in wired Jerusalem seclusion at the turn of the millennium. This section has now been included as a second volume entitled The Doorway. The first half of the book, mostly written while a student at Columbia, in NYC, relates experiences ranging from surviving a yeshiva in Milwaukee, to strip bars in NYC, and then New/Old Jews in Israel, and Ethiopian Woman. These sections were mostly written in 1994 and 1995, in a conversational informal style of writing that suited this chronology. The last half the book is more of a journal and culminates with an escape to an island where I can work without distraction, and also mentions other travels throughout the South Pacific, Central, and South America.
Please visit http://DoubleMirrors.com for continual updates, including an ongoing online journal project, Project Double Mirrors CD ROM/ Double Mirrors Soundtrack audio CD ordering info, as well as an extensive full color image and multimedia gallery. To hear the ambient/techno Double Mirrors soundtrack, inspired by Ethiopian Women, dolphins, and Double Mirrors, please visit:
Version 1.2 of this book, uploaded on 11/1/00 was 604 pages, 250,000 words. For version 1.3 I had to edit out 172 pages ( down to 180,000 words) for the publisher, which amounted to omitting 28% of the book. So In order to avoid limitations in the publishing process, I decided to publish a 2 volume work, with the second volume entitled The Doorway, focusing on writings and diolouge from 1997 to the present, beging with my move from NYC to Jerusalem, and on the Origin of the Universe theory from Jerusalem, at the turn of the millenium, which appears in the preface section of this book as well. Many exceprts from both books, as well as most of the removed sections, and can also be found on DoubleMirrors.com in the section “book excerpts.” For recent updates, please visit the ongoing online journal at DoubleMirrors.com/journal.
Double Mirror Theory - 1994 (see page 303 for the 20 page version)
Mankind's inexhaustible quest for truth, spirituality, god, and or however else one wishes to refer to the infinite, can be accounted for by what I refer to as my theory of the double mirrors. Like animals, are senses perceive a physical world; light reflects off tangible objects, and into the retina, sending a chemical message that is interpreted by the brain. This reflection causes other chemical functions leading to all of the natural behavior of animals. The chimpanzee sees the peanut and eats it. What makes us different, however, is that we somehow reflect on our existence, analyzing our sense perception from a distance. This ability in effect, provides another "mirror," and combines with the first reflection to produce the illusion of infinity. We are like a chimpanzee living between two mirrors, constantly viewing not only the grass in front of him, but the reflection of the grass and the reflection of the reflection and so on. As a result, we humans do not merely eat the peanut, but ponder why we are eating the peanut, what the world would be like if it were not for the peanut, and how we should properly treat the peanut, etc.. Like the illusion of infinity is produced by parallel mirrors, we construe notions of immortality, the soul, god, and spirituality. If our minds were merely powerful computers, we might still have produced advanced technology but the perception of metaphysics would be unattainable.
It is only our self perception that has led mankind to the perhaps infinitely difficult problem that confronts us all- how our we to deal with our notions of spirituality, and should it affect our interaction with the physical world? Should our primary and most basic interaction with the sensual world be affected by notions derived from our secondary reflections? Should our pursuit of spirituality affect our interaction with the physical world? Or should interaction with this sensual world be used to help us in our search for the spiritual?
Like many people, these are questions that I have personally tackled for most of my life. My own journey culminated in Jerusalem, the city where men have been pondering these questions for four thousand years, and then led to wondering much of the glove as a wired hermit/digital nomad , seeking dolphins and mermaids to help nurture my wounded spirit, an